A Million Little Pieces #2

During the second section of the reading I found myself to be very angry at Frey. In rehab he became very suicidal and was doing all that he could to try to get out of the center so that he could just go to die. He ended up walking out of rehab in attempts to leave but was greeted by a fellow rehab patient that made him promise to stay for at least another 24 hours and if he still wanted to leave after those 24 hours, no one was going to stop him. Frey was presented with another opportunity to survive. So many people that he has encountered have given him opportunities to turn his life around and be a better individual. But that is a major problem with Frey. Every ounce of help he gets, he refutes it with wanting to hurt himself. In the 24 hours that Frey had to stay at the clinic for before he could once again try to leave the facility, he kept saying things like "I have 18 hours left until I can leave this dumb place." This made me so mad because he is showing that he doesn't want any help. People have been trying to help him for a long time. This wasn't his first time in a rehabilitation facility. If he wants so badly to just leave and use drugs and drink until it is the death of him, then why should anyone try to stop him. Obviously his family and his friends don't want to see him dead, I don't think anyone would want that- but if his family and his friend have tried and tried and tried to support him and help him through rehab and nothing is working, there isn't a whole lot they can do about it. Frey makes an interesting point when he explains that he doesn't truly believe he is human. He explains, "Humans are said to only seek food, shelter, and sex. Humans are said to have only these as their primary urges. I have lived in a state where I went without all, sought none. I do not know what that makes me." James Frey looses his humanity when his addiction takes over his life and then has to live with what the addiction brings. To be a human you have to be more than a living breathing being. You have to be able to function in society and you should have those primary urges. All James Frey want's is to die, rather commit suicide, because his addiction literally controls his life. At this point in the book I do not think James Frey has any hope of getting better. He continues to be shattered into a million little pieces broken beyond repair.